Fear

Every once in a while, God gives me a word that I am apparently supposed to focus on and figure out its power in my life. Lately, that word has been “fear”. I never thought this word had power in my life. I’ve always considered myself brave, not adventurous, but brave. But everywhere I go, in so many songs and sermons, the word “fear” has been the loudest word I hear. It’s made me realize that I am afraid. I’m afraid because I know that God has a plan, and I don’t know it. My future is uncertain, to me at least. I like safety, I like knowing where I’m going and what I think is going to happen. I am afraid, because God has a plan for me that is not with my family. My family has been a safety net for me my whole life, and where I’m going, as a missionary, they won’t be there. I’m afraid because I’m going into the unknown to me. But you know what? I refuse to be afraid. Fear is a liar and he will keep me from obeying God’s command. Fear will not win my life. Satan will not win. My feet are ready to move where God wants me to go.

I thought that my lesson this summer was patience, but I’ve been learning that that isn’t it. The lesson is contentness and learning how to have joy through and in it all. The journey to where God wants me to go, has not been easy, but God has a plan for it. He has been fighting hard for me for so long and my feet are ready to move to get His name to people who have never heard of Him. He is fighting for them too. I will not be afraid to share Him and His grace and love with all those I interact with, here in the states and overseas. I will go. His glory is my reward. I will not let fear win. I am no longer a slave to fear because I am a child of God. He will take me deeper than I ever imagined, and while it will not be easy, it will all be worth it. “If I perish, I perish”. My time has already been determined, it is just as likely I will die here as I will wherever I go. There is a 100% chance I will die wherever I am. I know where I’m going when I die, so I am going to serve and obey my God and I will not be afraid to make His name known in the nations. My heart will serve my Lord for He is sovereign. He has a plan and a purpose for me. He has a plan and a purpose for you. You and I both have a part to play in His story. Will you do it fearlessly? We can do it fearlessly because He knows what He’s doing. Let His name be known wherever you are. Jesus saves. He saved me and He can and will save you, if you just ask Him to. Fear will not stop me from living my life for Him. I will live my life wholeheartedly for Him for He gave His life wholeheartedly for me.